I am a horrible fat person.

My title says it all.  When did my fat rolls get fat rolls?  I haven't blogged in weeks.  I am eating halloween candy and OMG I can't stop.  I need someone to get on my ass (not literally) and get me back on track. I can make excuses as to why, but that is not going to fly with anyone.  I am tired, exhausted, have no energy and my house looks like a wreck, sort of like me! Those are my excuses and that is the best I can come up with.  I have increased my water drinking.  I think because I refuse to buy any soda and there is nothing else to drink in the house.  I did that on purpose.  I would love to join a gym and get out of the house, but money is kind of tight right now.  Oh well...It is time to get motivated.  SERIOUSLY MOTIVATED.  I do not want to be a size 14 and shopping at Lane Bryant.

Ugh...I can hear the fat laughing

It's been six days since I wrote last & I feel guilty.  Guilty for not writing & for all the junk I ate this past weekend.  I have come to the conclusion that I eat a ton when Danny is around.  Go figure!  My husband is the reason for my weight gain and not the fact that I had 3 kids & my appetite is ten times more than what it used to be.  Lame. I know.  I have been good about drinking water.  Well, some what good.  I drink it, but not as much as I should.  My eating during the week is pretty good.  I do have my moment of weaknesses (bread). I am having a hard time not eating it.  I LOVE BREAD. Plain, toasted, buttered, flavored, you name it.  I eat it.  I made pumpkin bread over the weekend....BIG MISTAKE. I couldn't resist it.  I don't care how many times I stared at the skinny bitch in the pictures on Pinterest.  I was going to eat my bread.  I did.  The fat laughed. Working out you ask?  LOL  I have not sat still in days nor made the time to do it.  I am hoping that all my walking around the house & cleaning (dancing while cleaning) has made some sort of impact.  I doubt it, but training my brain to say so.

I got on the scale at Publix.  Even bigger mistake.  The scale is off.  I used Chase as my guinea pig and he said there is no way he weights what he did.  So I am taking pleasure in knowing that the scale is off.

I will not blog this weekend because my fat ass has to get in a costume and go to a party. I will be little red (fat) riding hood.  My basket will be filled with bread.  :)

Day 4

Can Halloween really be that close?  I looked at costumes online and realized that I can't wear even half of the ones they show on there.  Do they have costumes for mom's who have had 3 kids and a muffin top?  I need something that covers my cheese thighs & ass.

MUST DRINK MORE WATER! That should help, right?

Day 3 MUST DO EXERCISES

I feel guilty this morning.  I didn't exercise at all yesterday. My calves are still sore, but that is not an excuse.  I spent most of yesterday cleaning & running around after my two little ones.  I have had my one cup of coffee already this morning & I feel like I need another one.  I won't have it!  I will drink my water (yuck) and keep going.  I miss drinking Sprite & eating bread.  I will have to work out extra today...going to get ice cream tonight & I have been waiting for this day for weeks!

UGH! My tummy hurts! I ate way to much ice cream.  I just didn't know when to quit! I knew I was going to over due it.  Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Day 2 & boy do I ache!

Good morning!  Day 2 and my calves, lower back & abdomen are sore this morning.  All that from a 4 minute work out!!! I am really out of shape.  Starting my day out with my coffee.  I refuse to give that up.  We all have guilty pleasures & this is mine.

My dinner was a bust.  My husband and kids said to never make it again.  I have to agree...it wasn't as good.  I didn't even eat 1/2 of it.  I did have an ice cream cone last night.  I know, I know...I could hear the fat laughing it up and saying "failure"...but I bought the cones over a week ago and I have one left.  I have to get rid of them.  Like my logic? LOL

It's been one of those days...children didn't nap, so I didn't do what I was suppose to do.  It's an excuse and I know it.  I have been drinking my water, had lunch which was leftover taco pizza. Not as hungry as I thought I would be today. I am trying to stay clear of things that I know I have no control over...cookies, chips and such.  They keep eyeing me and taunting me to eat them.  I AM STRONGER THAN THAT! At least I think I am.  It's still early....

Well, I didn't do any exercising at all.  I was to busy racing after the little ones.  That counts, doesn't it? I didn't eat anything bad & drank water.  Still hate it.

Day 1

After speaking to my friends, it is time.  I can no longer ignore what keeps laughing at me in the mirror.  It is time to get off the couch and do something.  I am currently 145 lbs.  My goal is 130.  I am not going to give myself a time line.  If I do, I am afraid if I "slip up" I will just give up.

No more soda
Drink more water
Give up snacking (bad snacks)
Eat less bread!! (my weakness)
Commit to doing at least 15 minutes of exercise (slowly working my way up) daily
Remind myself daily that I CAN DO THIS!

Weight today: 145

Exercise for today:
Sexy goddess warmup
Hop in place: 1 minute
Bicycle crunches: 1 minute
Jumping jacks: 1 minute
Leg lifts: 1 minute

4 minute warm up kicked my ass.  It has been that long since I have done any sort of work out.  I will feel this later I am sure.
Going to walk with the little ones today.  That will be 15 minutes
Like I said, taking it one day at a time and slow.  I can't rush into a full work out because I will never stick to it.

16oz of water doesn't seem like a lot.  I am not a big water drinker to begin with, so this is going to be a challenge.  I am not a fan of crystal light or any of those other powdered water drinks.  So, I am going to suck it up and just drink my water...hopefully more than once a day.  It's a good start, right?

The day is almost over and I have to say I did ok.  I can't say great because I did have bread today & I didn't eat like I should have.  I did drink 2 16oz of water & nothing else.  I am starving at this point and I am about to eat dinner.  Nothing really on the diet menu, but it is chicken w/ broccoli & cheese! As I have learned...eat in moderation.

Today's words of wisdom: